Friday, April 29, 2011

138lbs again

I feel disgusting and large :( 
Sorry that I haven't been updating; looking for a job and what not has consumed all of my time.
Just found out that no one will hire me due to lack of experience and on top of that, I can't even donate plasma because of my bi-polar. Like, really?! fml.

Saturday, March 5, 2011


I never thought i'd weigh this little in my entire life!
But then again, stress from my grandpa passing and losing my "gf" is a bit much :/
Well, i know no one reads this but if someone does, stay strong and dont ever give up. It's your life, live how you want! :)

Tuesday, February 15, 2011


I was 130.6lbs on friday but then I ran out of my Vyvanse :( I eat so much when I'm off of it,it sucks.
But I got my new script and it's all good now and my dr also put me on Saphris. I don't know
how it will affect my weight but the minute I notice a bad difference, I'm takin myself off of it.
Ugh, wish I had the motivation to write more but since getting a therapist i'm all out of words :( Oh well, hope everyone is staying strong! <3

Sunday, February 6, 2011

I can;;& I will...

To some of you, a size 7 might be seem obese but to me, it's AMAZING!! 
If there was not a house full here, I'd write more.
Not that anyone even reads this....I'll write more tomorrow afternoon.

Thursday, December 16, 2010

Update;;sorry girls.

My grandpa has lung cancer, my gf has been acting weird, and I'm just way too out of it
to update lately and I'm sorry.
So, someone told me that I can't possibly have an ED because I don't count calories.
That's stupid. I've been diagnosed with EDNOS for almost 6 years and mainly restrict or just purge but I don't count the calories or fat grams of what's eaten. Mainly, because I eat baby carrots and apples when I restrict and when I purge there's just too much to count and most of it ends up down the toilet. The only numbers  that matter to me are the ones on the scale. So that girl that told me I can't have an ed, you can shove your words down your throat, and i hope you choke on them when they're coming back up.
I hate the holidays so I don't know how often this is going to be updated. Just prayers and wishing me luck would be nice.
It's much appreciated. Stay Strong Girls!
Don't let anyone ever doubt your willpower!
Peace, Love, & Mental Stability. <3

Thursday, December 2, 2010

I got 99 problems...

Aunt flo is coming, I have a headache, haven't weighed myself in days, ate kfc & jimmy johns yesterday....


Friday, November 26, 2010


Even though I ate like a fat woman at a chocolate shop yesterday, I weighed myself 
this morning in my pajamas and it said 138lbs :)
That made my morning esp since I was waiting to see 142 or something higher.
My gf has a fb page now and it kind of makes me feel insecure just because she has the mentality of a guy.
Maybe it's just me being paranoid but oh well. Well, I don't really have much to say right now except that I am home alone and bored as f*ck! None of my friends wanna hangout and on top of that, i have no cell phone to make plans. Awesome. Until later my lovelies <3